Comedy of errors

to relent is fun...to surrender is funner, even more so when u know u just can't get enough of. History sure has a way of repeating itself. when u consider it lost, it just never happens. N m left to wonder, why? why now after all these years? My life hs bn a whirlwind of overwhelming events. some good, some bad. Sometimes, m too numb to react to things n its interpreted in any which ways. Am i fuelling the fire? i sure hope not. As if it was not enough already, i find myself torn by indecisions. But where does 1 draw d line? 

Nagging thots keeps me awake at nights. All the 'what ifs' comes alive in the recess of darkness. I need a closure to it all. But how to go about it? Do i really need a closure? I like the thrill of d unknown but m afraid to venture. I need someone to guide me thru but mayb not. I wud rather stand at d crossroads alone than wanting someone to share the same fate of uncertainty. Whatever befalls on me, one thing is definite that m carrying u with me to my happy place. If not u then the brief interludes n sweet surrender of ur smile for me. Forever.

Don't ask me to relent now. We ve come so far. Unreasonable as it is, it is futile to ask me to give u anything. I have given evrything thr ws to give. 

Let me gaze at dawn without