Hope is a good thing...may be one of the best things that we humans have been bestowed with....we always ignore that good things do not always come like storms....there is no bolt of lightning....it comes in the form of drizzle....drip drip drip.
But the ever greedy species that we are, we choose to ignore the quarter of happiness that we get in want of more, much more...the never ending search for happiness goes on and on...that includes me too....i have always lived by the rules of playing the game where i have hoped against hope....never had time to look back and cherish the moments of happiness that crossed my path....foolish that i was and still am...but i do try and remain hopeful and positive still....realising that only way to remain happy is not going after it but waiting for it only when i think that i have done something that should be rewarded justly...we make mistakes again and again and so have i....but the best thing to do is to revel in not committing the very same mistake twice...
During my boarding school days all i did was wait...to go out in the world as soon as possible...not realising that it was sort of a home to me...and rather than cribbing i could have done things differently...causing troubles always....it was as if i was fighting for something which never even existed....if only i could turn back times....i could have studied more rather than wasting time on nuisances that i was always upto....could have changed few things about myself and others around me...but all in all those were the most beautiful and carefree days of my life.
During my college days i wanted to return to my shell of a school again....why? i know now because i was terrified of coming out in the world and things that i saw around me....frienships were redefined....n yes you can only make everlasting friendships in school....outside that you can only dream about true friends...but still i made friends in college whom i treasure and respect...but i learnt about other kinds too whom i called friends and who brutally murdered my trust and loyalty...those i forgive because i was naive....n i wish them the very best...also learnt its very important to forget and forgive....world has no place for people who remain stuck in the past follies but those who rise on the occasion and face those follies.... n yeah i did that too.
During my college days i wanted to return to my shell of a school again....why? i know now because i was terrified of coming out in the world and things that i saw around me....frienships were redefined....n yes you can only make everlasting friendships in school....outside that you can only dream about true friends...but still i made friends in college whom i treasure and respect...but i learnt about other kinds too whom i called friends and who brutally murdered my trust and loyalty...those i forgive because i was naive....n i wish them the very best...also learnt its very important to forget and forgive....world has no place for people who remain stuck in the past follies but those who rise on the occasion and face those follies.... n yeah i did that too.
The concept of love in this world is utterly absurd...give and take is love...making out is love...long phone conversations is love...long drives is love...possesiveness is love....etc etc...I learnt it the hard way....but no detail here.Only thing i learnt is 'what was yours that you lost?'Companionship is what matters the most.
For today its enough....should get back to work.
For today its enough....should get back to work.
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Hmmm, that seemed heartfelt...
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